Tuesday, November 8, 2016

The Clinton Crime Wave

Haven't you all had enough of the Clinton crime spree that has plagued our country for decades?  For God's sake Bill Clinton has lied through his teeth about everything from having affairs to smoking marijuana.  Now we have his wife, who everyone that has a brain cell knows is bitter and jaded working diligently to blind the most illiterate in our country to her murders and deception.  As unfortunate as it is they will believe her because they are not only illiterate but they can't stand America and want to see America fall.  Well they will get their wish come Wednesday, November 9th because the stupidest of the stupid will be out voting and making the worst choice in American history.  

This year I paid off all my credit cards and only have debt related to my massive student loans that I used to live off of and get my bachelors/master's degree.  And I am unemployed, yup on unemployment and can't find a job that wants to pay me a reasonable amount of money.  My master's degree is worthless because it was a stepping stone to the Phd. program that I couldn't afford to pay for.  So, my 200,000.00 in debt to the "government" will never get paid.  I'd rather work and pay off my debts but it seems this country is full of free loaders so I have decided that I am going to figure out a way to become a free loader on this country too.

After tonight's determination of who will be president we will know our fate.  If Clinton is our president, you will see a lot of depression and lack of motivation....If Trump is our president, you will see the streets fill with rioting and hate filled aggression from liberals towards the conservatives because they are scared they will have to go to work and support themselves instead of living off the system.  Either way, we are going to see a lot of pain.

Shame on Hillary Clinton and Bill Clinton for their crime spree.  Shame on the American people that are voting for the liberal way of life when we have so many broken Veterans and the homeless population is surpassing all time highs.  Shame on America for not standing up and fighting back towards the corruption and repulsive nature of politics along time ago.  I am included in these shaming because I am not better than you.  Yet, what I do know is that this country needs a more conservative leadership than what ObamaNATION has left us with.  More on that later, what a damn disgrace that family has left not only this country but African Americans.  No fucking way will another African American see office that's for sure.

Sunday, November 6, 2016

BLOGWOMANIA: the FAT Epidemic in ME

BLOGWOMANIA: the FAT Epidemic in ME: I was overweight, I was thin, I am overweight.  12 years ago I lost 70 lbs eating low carbs and exercising a little each day.  I had thinned...

the FAT Epidemic in ME

I was overweight, I was thin, I am overweight.  12 years ago I lost 70 lbs eating low carbs and exercising a little each day.  I had thinned up and felt comfortable in my body.  I met my husband 11 years ago....since meeting him I have felt like I have done everything in my power to sabotage my outward beauty.  He has always told me that it doesn't matter to him.  I wonder if that is how come I have seemingly made it my mission to destroy myself physically.

I can barely stand to look at myself in the mirror and I have weighed myself in years.  I know how bad I look and how unhealthy I am, it is obvious in how tight my clothes are and my lack of motivation to do anything, why....it doesn't matter any ways right....

I see social media posts saying things like don't sweat the small stuff and that everything is the small stuff.  I disagree with alot of it because I know a majority of it isn't small stuff, it's big stuff and sweating it is what we as a nation do, we worry, so that we can make changes to effect our worries to have outcomes that are good for us.

My weight, well that has gotten worse and worse.  I suspect I will have a heart attack in the next three years.  I am not supposed to worry though right because it's just small stuff.  My kids are grown and I am pretty useless in this world.

My grandmother always made sure to let me know when I was gaining weight, or telling my ex-husband what a horrible mistake he was making by marrying me, and keeping friends with the devils family after he married another woman and stopped allowing me to see my young 2 year old son so his mistress could mother him in preparation for their own children.

Or....my mother, who couldn't show up to a single musical event that I was absolutely in love with or take time to show me that allowing a man to beat the living shit out of you was not alright by stepping up and leaving for good and telling that human piece of waste to go to Hell, or hmmm, telling me about birth control or sex so I wouldn't get pregnant at a young age to get the hell away from all her profoundly stupid abuse that she still today won't get off her fucking ass and pick up the phone, apologize for her shit and tell me she loves me, probably because she never did,  she only had me because she was Catholic and it was expected of her.....

FUCK am I angry.....at so many people so many people who could have effected more positive change in someone's life and allowed goodness to be part of who I am instead of this anger and indifference to myself.

I have a magical sense of awareness that I have been blessed with yet, I have not desire to use it or be part of this world anymore.  I can't stand how much weight I have gained, I can't stand the world as it is today, the unemployment, the lack of consideration on the streets, the struggle that so many go through today, not just me....so many, even worse than what I have experienced.  I don't put my struggles above what is out there but the fact that I am so lazy that I don't exercise or care should be enough to have me removed from this planet.


Don't get me wrong.  I would love to care again, I just know every single time I do the devil comes in and swoops up the situation and fucks it up for me and who ever is around me so isn't it just better to let him have me so that I don't fuck it up for others around me?

I'd love to loose 2 lbs instead of gain it.  I would love to feel like my jogging is actually going to make a difference.


Sunday, October 23, 2016

To Blog or Not to Blog

Ever felt that feeling that if you blog about something or "complain" or "put it out in the universe"  that your gonna have to deal with the consequences.....or whatever ......RIGHT?  Well, I feel it all the time.  I recognize that what I put into the universe could possibly be right back around the corner to come back to me in drouths,......If only that was true...If only all that good energy that I had put out there could come back and squash the shit out of the darkness I feel on the inside towards the people who want to fuck me over financially, emotionally, spiritually, mentally,  or physically.  That's not how it works people.  Sure, I know you want to hear me say, "You get what you give...."  Not how I see it.  You get what your supposed to get...and God determines that.  Whether you call God, God or whatever you use for your "descriptor"  of the All Mighty CREATOR.....

So if you believe that the universe created you...then that's who's making the decisions about what comes your way...I personally believe it is God, the father, the son, and the holy spirit.  Nope, I am not of an affiliated religion.  I suppose you could call me the BELIEVER...I believe, yup I do. I certainly damn well do.  I just have lost faith.

I'll tell you more later.  Any of you feel the same?  You believe but your faith is fucked right now?  I wouldn't be surprised to hear from a mega shit load of people because right now we are getting royally screwed by this whole PRESIDENTIAL bullshit.    I can say this because I was in the Navy and served my country.  I feel fucking screwed big time and am angry, hurt, and fucking want to stomp my feet and cry and scream and just put an end to it all, here, there and everywhere.

Anyone?
J

Monday, November 10, 2014

Wise Beyond His Years

"PROMISE ME you'll always REMEMBER You're BRAVER than you BELIEVE, and STRONGER than you SEEM and SMARTER than you THINK."  


-Christopher Robin to Pooh

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Embrace Womanhood ++++

Woman
Embracing Womanhood




When any woman honors herself, all women collectively move closer to becoming what they are truly capable of being.


There are many ways and myriad reasons for women to honor and embrace all that they are. And when any individual woman chooses to do so, all women collectively move closer to becoming what they are truly capable of being. By honoring her experience and being willing to share it with others—both male and female—she teaches as she learns. When she can trust herself and her inner voice, she teaches those around her to trust her as well. Clasping hands with family members and friends, coworkers and strangers in a shared walk through the journey of life, she allows all to see the self-respect she possesses and accepts their respect, too, that is offered through look, word, and deed.

When a woman can look back into her past, doing so without regret and instead seeing only lessons that brought her to her current strength and wisdom, she embraces the fullness of her experience. She helps those around her to build upon the past as she does. And when she chooses to create her desires, she places her power in the present and moves forward with life into the future.

Seeing her own divinity, a woman learns to recognize the divinity in all women. She then can see her body as a temple, appreciating its feminine form and function, regardless of what age or stage of life she finds herself. She can enjoy all that it brings to her experience and appreciate other women and their experiences as well. Rather than seeing other women as competition, she can look around her to see the cycle of life reflected in the beauty of her sisters, reminding her of her own radiance should she ever forget. She can then celebrate all the many aspects that make her a being worthy of praise, dancing to express the physical, speaking proudly to express her intellect, sharing her emotions, and leading the way with her spiritual guidance. Embracing her womanhood, she reveals the facets that allow her to shine with the beauty and strength of a diamond to illuminate her world. 




Friday, July 18, 2014

Sight Versus Vision

Seeing Inside
Sight Versus Vision

Navigate 
Vision comes from within
 and 
shows us
 how to navigate 
the realms of 
 thought, 
feeling, 
and emotion.


Sight is the ability to see the physical world while vision is the gift of seeing beyond it. Sight enables us to take the physical world in so we can participate in it with knowledge. It brings us pleasure through our eyes, which perceive the colors and shapes of all the myriad expressions of nature and human beings. It helps us feel in control, allowing us to see what is coming toward us, which way we are going, and exactly where we are standing at a given moment. We are able to read signs and books, navigate the interiors of buildings with ease, sense and perceive how a person is feeling by the expressions that cross her face.

As anyone who has lost their eyesight can tell you, though, there are things that are clearer when you cannot see the world through your eyes. One of the reasons many meditation instructors advise sitting with the eyes closed is because we automatically become more in touch with our inner world when we are not distracted by the outer world. It is in this state that vision becomes our mode of seeing. Vision comes from within and shows us how to navigate the realms of thought, feeling, and emotion. It enables us to see things that aren’t yet manifested in the world of form, and it also connects us to that part of ourselves that exists separately from the world of form.

As we age, even those of us with perfect eyesight will generally lose some of our acuity, but this loss is usually replaced with inner vision. This is the time of life when we are meant to turn inside and take what are sometimes the very first steps of a journey that cannot be traced on a map. We call upon intuition and feel our way along a path that ultimately carries us beyond the realm we can see with our eyes and into the land of spirit.

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Obligations-Scheduling too much and Draining our Energy

Obligations
To Others and to Ourselves

BALANCE


When we 
schedule too much 
in our lives
 trying to meet our obligations, 
we only end up draining our energy.


We all encounter obligations in life, from spending time with family and friends to being present at important functions in the lives of the people who form our community. Many times, the obligations are actually fun and fulfilling, and we want to be there. At the same time, we all sometimes experience resistance to meeting these obligations, especially when they pile up all at once and we begin to feel exhausted, longing for nothing so much as a quiet evening at home. At times like these, we may want to say no but feel too guilty at the idea of not being there. Still, our primary obligation is to take care of ourselves, and if saying no to someone else is what we have to do, then we do not need to feel bad about it.

There is a skill to balancing our obligations, and it starts with simply becoming aware of our schedule. We may notice that three invitations have arisen in one weekend, and we know that we will pay energetically if we attempt to fulfill all three. At this point, we can take the time to weigh the repercussions of not going to each event, considering how we will feel if we miss it and how our absence might affect other people. Most of the time, it will be clear which obligation we can most easily let go and which one we simply can’t miss. Sometimes we have to miss something really important to us, and that can be painful for everyone concerned. At times like this, reaching out with a phone call, a thoughtful card, or a gift lets people know that you are there in spirit and that your absence is by no means a result of you not caring.

Meeting our obligations to others is an important part of being human and not one to take lightly. At the same time, we cannot meet every obligation without neglecting our primary duty to take care of ourselves. We can navigate this quandary by being conscious of what we choose to do and not do and by finding concrete ways to extend our caring when we are not able to be there in person. 



HUMANITY.....Forgotten?  Ignored?  Neglected?  REMINDER.....Remember to inspire your self by remembering, paying attention, being compassionate, love and allow the inspired to provide inspiration!

Sunday, July 6, 2014

Live by what you believe so fully that your life Blossoms



When we Bring Our Hearts
You could feel affectionate and emotionally demonstrative today. This could lead you to seek a deeper and fuller experience in your relationships.

 Perhaps you are wondering whether to share your feelings with a romantic interest. You also may be thinking about ways you could spend more time with loved ones.

One suggestion is to gather them to take part in a fun activity like a board game, party, or dinner. 
You may also want to express your affection to the people you care about by telling them that you love them or giving them a kiss or a warm embrace today. 

They may be inspired to return your affection with equal measure.


By sharing our feelings with loved ones, we create a deeper sense of intimacy in our relationships. It can be intimidating to open our hearts and share our feelings with those we care about, especially if we are afraid to be vulnerable or of getting hurt. 

If we can remember that our loved ones probably feel the same way that we do, we can realize that we have nothing to fear. We may then feel confident about revealing our hearts, and this will allow our loved ones to draw closer to us.

 Dare to tell the people you love how you feel about them today, and you will strengthen your relationships and feel loved in return. 

Saturday, July 5, 2014

BLOGWOMANIA: Simple Gestures of Solace-Offering Comfort

BLOGWOMANIA: Simple Gestures of Solace-Offering Comfort: offering comfort Simple Gestures of Solace When offering comfort to somebody, their only real need is to have you be in the prese...